04:39, 06 November 2011, Sunday

Haven’t found the courage to sleep through the night.

To put things into perspective, I have less than seventy-two hours until I sit for yet another written paper (okay, this isn’t just another paper; it’s friggin’ Chemistry Paper 3) in the second major exam of my entire life ― the A Levels.

Yes, it’s make or break. And I really really need my As for college entrance. (Well, don’t we all?)

Here’s a line-up of the frightening phase:

WEEK 1

08Nov 14:00-16:00 9647/3 CHEMISTRY
09Nov 08:00-09:30 8806/1 GENERAL PAPER
09Nov 10:15-11:45 8806/2 GENERAL PAPER
09Nov 14:00-16:00 9648/2 BIOLOGY
10Nov 08:00-11:00 9740/1 MATHEMATICS
10Nov 14:00-17:00 8814/1 HISTORY
11Nov 08:00-11:00 9740/2 MATHEMATICS

WEEK 2

16Nov 14:00-16:00 9647/2 CHEMISTRY

WEEK 3

21Nov 08:00-10:00 9648/3 BIOLOGY

WEEK 4

29Nov 14:00-15:00 9647/1 CHEMISTRY
01Dec 14:00-15:15 9648/1 BIOLOGY

Seems like much of it will be over this coming week, which is both consoling and unnerving. What will I amount to at the end of twelve years of formal education? Is it all down to my A Level grades? The thought is unsettling. I’m hoping for As and Bs. I’m afraid I’d be disappointed at the end of the day. But then again, I haven’t been studying as hard as I should be. In fact, I haven’t been much.

When will I learn?